I'm not trying to be lame when i say this, but

I got a 4.0 this semester, thats right, all A's baby! James would be proud.
this teaches a VERY valuable lesson, not having a life does mean success in some ways, you just have to deal with the depression and imaginary friends. just kidding.

SO, theres really no reason to tell you all, but I work everyday but tomorrow this week. That means tomorrow I'm going SHOPPING!!!I'm looking forward to purchasing some new botos. My shopping journey will include: Urban, F21, Shi, and many others. YEAH!
Then, I'm going to my work party.

I'm sorta looking forward to spending a day by myself.

ps. my moms the grinch.

almost a year ago I posted a song b/c i could not attain peace.
i remember working and having this song on repeat, it was my prayer and an act of hope.i am posting the song again, but this time I post it in joy and peace. there has been victory.

i guess im just letting this be a testimony of encouragement, b/c one year later the daily struggle against doubt, sin, unforgivness, bitterness, and depression is GONE.  
HALLELUJAH

"He says it's impossible... But I know it's possible
He says there's no me without him... Please help me forget about him
He takes all my energy... Trapped in my memory
Constantly holding me... Constantly holding me

I need to tell you all... All the pain he's caused

He says it's impossible... But I know it's possible
He says it's impossible without him... But I know it's possible
To finally be in love... And know the real meaning of
A lasting relationship... Not based on ownership
I trust every part of you.... Cause all that you say you do
You love me despite myself.....Sometimes I...
I fight myself I just can't believe that you.... Would have anything to do
With someone so insecure... Someone so immature
Ohh you inspire me, to be the higher me

You make my desire pure... You make my desire pure
Just tell me what to say... I can't find the words to say
Please don't be mad with me... I have no identity
All that I've known is gone... All I was building on
I wanna walk with you, how do I talk to you?

Touch my mouth with your hands... Touch my mouth with your hands

Oh I wanna understand the meaning of your embrace
I know now I have to face... The temptations of my past
Please don't let me disgrace... will my devotion last
Now that I know the truth... Now that it's no excuse
Keeping me from your love... What was I thinking of?
Holding me from your love... What was I thinking of?

You are my peace of mind... That old me is left behind 

He says it's impossible... but I know it's possible
He says it's not grab-able... but I know it's have-able
Cause anything's possible... Cause anything is possible

Please come free my mind... Please come feed my mind
Won't you come free my mind?
Oh I know it's possible

Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything....
Anything, anything, anything, anything,....
Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything....


You are my peace of mind... That old me is left behind
He's my peace of mind... He's my peace of mind
He's my peace of mind... What a joy it is to be alive
To get another chance, Every day's another chance
To get it right this time... every day's another chance

Oh what a merciful... merciful, merciful God
Oh what a wonderful... wonderful wonderful God 
What a merciful... merciful, merciful, merciful God
What a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful, merciful
Merciful, merciful, wonderful
Merciful, wonderful..."

-Lauren Hill

sometimes i don't understand what I feel.

I leave you with this:

"All of the good and beautiful things from which we occasionally drink tiny droplets of soul-exhilarating joy, God continuously experiences in all their breadth and depth and richness...Great tidal waves of joy must constantly wash through His being."   
-Dallas Willard

i know what i need to do. i need to love Him; i need to worship Him. I need to hold on to the red letters. i need those words to replace the memories. i want to worship. i want to get on my knees and cry with my God; to cry on the lap of my abba. i want to run into his presence and grab ahold of him and not let go until it's done. i want to see him face to face. all i want to do is just go and be with Jesus, and just BE, with Him. i want to pause this life and run away with Jesus.

all i need to do is worship.
to claim the name of jesus.

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"I've tasted Your glory and I left it there. You poured out Your Spirit and I didn't care. Still You loved me.

I've lived for myself with nobody to blame. I took what You gave me and squandered Your grace. Still You loved me. Nothing compares to what You've done for me Nothing compares to what You've done for me.

I could live for the broken and carry their pain. I could die like a martyr or live like a saint just to love You. I could sing like the angels and gather Your praise; be blessed beyond measure and give it away just to love You. Still nothing compares to what You've done for me. Nothing compares to what You've done for me.

My heart has been broken; I've laid out my shame. Because of Your mercy, all I can say is I love You. And I will tell of Your story; I'll carry Your name; I'll live for Your glory Lord, I'll share in Your pain just to love You. For nothing compares to what You've done for me.

Nothing can seperate us, nothing can separate us, not death or life or depth or height or unseen power now or ever!"

-the Michael Gungor band

have I told you that I'll be in texas on thursday?

for alumni weekend.

truestory.

friends.fun.fabulous.

laughter.